Doctrine and Divine Discourse

There are things that you know to be true, but will need reminding of til the day you die.

Getting married, moving far away, and starting a new job all within a month takes its toll on a soul emotionally, and is one of those times of life God uses to reveal to you the very fabric you are made of, but not only that, he shows you his son and then hands you a mirror-let the sanctification begin :)

Recently I have been dealing with one of those crossroads where the rubber meets the road and the Lord pulls a doctrine you know to be true off the bookshelf in your brain, one that you've owned for years and read numerous times, but he makes it more than just a story as he reads it aloud- it becomes your story--or rather you are struck with how much it doesn't sound like your story. I've always known that God must be and can be my all in all and that Shane and I are only human and can never reach the deepest parts of each others hearts or meet each others deepest needs. There was a quiet, yet real, fear in my heart in high school that if I dated that relationship would compete with the top spot that God deserved in my life. Here I am 10 years later and the curse is still alive and well-go figure. It's been tough at times being away from support systems that were there your entire life and feeling lonely at times when Shane is at work -a feeling that I haven't often been familiar with. It's so tempting to put all the pressure of all my feelings and needs on Shane. Shane is the love of my life,my husband, best friend, partner, confidante, leader, and strength, but I would do good to listen to the spirit that so quietly whispers of my straying allegiance--staying aware of my tendencies to want the amazing man God has brought into my life to be everything, and aware of how in the end that only hinders the freedom I can have to love others the way God intended me to! What person on this earth needs the pressure of filling needs only God can? Pastor Tom once said that so many people are always complaining about loneliness, and trying to fix it, when what need to do is let our loneliness drive us straight into the arms of our lord.

Praise God for his strong, still, quiet voice that penetrates our worlds, opens our blind eyes, and brings us to freedom and truth.

Weather Update

With most days hitting a heat index of 100 degrees + and humidity settling comfortably at around 95 %, the recent drop in temperature (high 80's, low 90's) has felt like a cold front!!! This week we have 7 days worth of T-Storms to look forward to. By the time we visit up North for Christmas our bodies will be so acclimated to the heat we will feel like we are visiting the South Pole.

P.S.

Today as I was walking down the halls while students were in class, I spotted two students dancing in the hallway down the way, it turns out they were Seniors from last year stopping in to visit an old teacher, as I approached to inquire as to what was going on, I asked "Where Y'all supposed to be?" Right then and there it happened!! The first Y'all to leave these lips since working at Kanakuk! I'm suffering from shock and a slight loss of identity : )